Published on September 28th, 2014 @ 10:54:00 am , using 428 words
As war heats up in the Middle East again, difficulties in comprehending how that many years of American involvement did not solve more problems. Year after year of arguments saying the job was getting done and now the job seems neverending. The whole fiasco of jihadists who come back to take over huge swaths of land where failed states have come to be the norm. Good article by Dexter Filkins in recent New Yorker shows how a vacuum has existed in Iraq and how the Kurds are trying to find their way to fighting against IS, get some freedom for themselves and position their own possibilities withing a context that is totally out of control.
And yet life in the US continues such as it does. Here in Mexico, the relatively quiet town of San Miguel continues its incessant fiesta traditions. We had Dias de Patria recently, celebrations of Independence, plenty of activities--fireworks, parades. The loss of old friend Keith Keller makes the place much emptier, so I have had to find some solace in a more solitary condition. Acted in a play recently, Annapurna, which was a challenge and a joy. Piece is about a dying poet who is visited by his ex-wife and he has to recall all the failures of his marriage and the disintegration of his life. Major premise, based somewhat on an attempt by climbers to reach the summit of Himalayan peak Annapurna, is that there are challenges that are beyond us and bring ruin in their wake. This seems to be the case with the marriage of Ulysses and Emma in Annapurna. Led me back to my own failures with marriage and a sense of perhaps trying to do impossible things.
But the life we live is perhaps always one we partly choose. Finding a solitary life in a mountain town in Mexico seems to have come as my fate. At times, a desire for a tribal life or a more communal or familial existence rises and there is a sense of having never secured that. On occasion, a play comes along and the cast pools its energies together and we have a family for a short while. Sometimes joining other families serves as a refuge from too much time alone. But the solitary life seems to have become normal for me and I know for others as well. We do our best to survive amid the complexities of living. We meditate, we walk, we absorb the light and the landscape. We keep on, trying to become part of the living world.